Merry Christmas Eve!

Aah... Christmas Day is in less than twenty-four hours.
That means... waaay last minute present shopping.
The smell of fish or meat or some non-sweet food invading your pillows and blankets in the morning.
TCF is on with famous singers [and even actors and actresses that can't sing for shiiiit] belting out Christmas Carols such as My Grown Up Christmas List.
I'd like to say that our version sounds muuuch better. You know, Jazz Choir?

It means watching Christmas movies like...
THE NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS, Deck the Halls, Home Alone, Mickey's Once upon a Christmas, The Polar Express, Elf, The Santa Clause and... wtf? Harry Potter?
Okay... yeah, sure. It's a Christmas movie because they show a tree, snow and caroling in one of them. Alright.
Let's throw Mean Girls in there too.
You know why. ;P

Oh yes, It's also my birthday today! :D
Jeric said, "How exciting!"
My brothers woke me up this morning. Joel pulled off my blankets.
Jeric and my mother dearest started singing the 12 Days of Christmas.
They started to forget the words at 8 maids a milking... lol.

So Michael's coming over today! :D
We're gonna go eat at the Asia Seafood Buffet. Yuummm.

Then we're going to church, and then my Auntie Zon's house.
For... the Christmas festivities. My birthday cake is a CHEESECAKE this year. Yess.
Fun, eh?

Michael's conceited.

[20:04] YOmikeHO: can she not swim??
[20:04] YOmikeHO: wow
[20:04] YOmikeHO: so noob
[20:04] YOmikeHO: iif i was her
[20:04] YOmikeHO: id be like
[20:04] YOmikeHO: getting us
[20:04] YOmikeHO: strokking my hair
[20:04] YOmikeHO: looking at the cam
[20:04] YOmikeHO: all cool
[20:04] yo tofu ball: LMAO!
[20:04] yo tofu ball: YEEEAH
[20:04] yo tofu ball: ohhhhkkkkay
[20:04] yo tofu ball: whatever

I almost burned my house down.

I just had a near death experience... again.

So... I'm cooking fish balls. I didn't notice a paper towel chillin' by the stove.
It caught on fire. The flame was coming towards me. I freaked out.
I tried waving it around... hoping to blow it out. It got bigger.
I chucked it in the sink... only to see there was a pan with MORE OIL.
It got bigger. I screamed. I turned the water on and tried blowing on it.
It went away. My mom run into the kitchen freaking out.

And so, the day is saved thanks to, Super Jilian.
And... I say near death experience again because the stove's fire exploded in my face once.
Good thing it didn't burn my beautiful complexion... right? Yeah right, Jil, you wish.

So... you should see Michael's and my commentary on You're Beautiful.
It's quite interesting. Not really.

[18:38] yotofuball: LMAO
[18:38] yotofuball: WTF
[18:38] yotofuball: he's running after her
[18:39] yotofuball: that's so dumb
[18:39] YOmikeHO: so dumb
[18:39] YOmikeHO: lol
[18:39] YOmikeHO: like
[18:39] YOmikeHO: impossible
[18:39] yotofuball: hahahaha
[18:39] YOmikeHO: the cars going like..
[18:39] YOmikeHO: 20 mph?
[18:39] YOmikeHO: im guessing
[18:39] YOmikeHO: rofl
[18:39] YOmikeHO: the guy is like holding on
[18:39] YOmikeHO: omg.
[18:39] YOmikeHO: -__-
[18:39] YOmikeHO: if she jumps
[18:39] YOmikeHO: nothing wil happen
[18:39] yotofuball: JUMP OFFF
[18:39] yotofuball: OMG
[18:39] YOmikeHO: RED LIGHT
[18:39] YOmikeHO: OMFG
[18:39] YOmikeHO: WTF GIRL
[18:39] YOmikeHO: WTF
[18:40] yotofuball: ASHDKLASHDKJASHDASK
[18:40] YOmikeHO: HGIRL
[18:40] YOmikeHO: JUMP
[18:40] YOmikeHO: CMON GIRL

[19:18] yotofuball: she's stupid. she like.. sticks her hand in random places
[19:18] YOmikeHO: lol
[19:18] YOmikeHO: no
[19:18] YOmikeHO: the thing is
[19:18] YOmikeHO: AHHH
[19:18] YOmikeHO: I EFFIN KNEW IT
[19:18] YOmikeHO: I KNEW IT
[19:18] YOmikeHO: I KNEW IT
[19:18] YOmikeHO: HE KEPT IT
[19:18] YOmikeHO: HAHAHA
[19:18] yotofuball: stupid
[19:18] YOmikeHO: IM A GENIUS!!!!
[19:19] yotofuball: you can tell because his hand was clasped
[19:19] YOmikeHO: YEAH!!
[19:19] YOmikeHO: hahah
[19:19] YOmikeHO: he wears make up to bed
[19:19] YOmikeHO: whata faggot
[19:19] yotofuball: lmao
[19:19] yotofuball: shut up
[19:19] yotofuball: that's the film makeup
[19:19] yotofuball: hahahah
[19:19] YOmikeHO: hes touched now
[19:19] YOmikeHO: man
[19:20] YOmikeHO: thats like
[19:20] YOmikeHO: what 24 hours of searching for a tiny ring in a big ass pond
[19:20] yotofuball: she like.. sticks her right hand in. then her lft hand. then she gets up.. walks a bit
[19:21] yotofuball: stuuuuuuupid
[19:21] YOmikeHO: lol
[19:21] YOmikeHO: whatd u do/
[19:21] YOmikeHO: ?
[19:21] yotofuball: who look sfor stuff in water like that?
[19:21] YOmikeHO: id put both hands down
[19:21] yotofuball: i'd get on my hands and knees and runs my hands around
[19:21] YOmikeHO: and crawl around
[19:21] YOmikeHO: aha yeah
[19:21] yotofuball: so i can feel it
[19:21] yotofuball: hahaha
[19:21] yotofuball: she like.. expects to find it like.. a claw machine

An entry before I shower.

Nowadays, blogs posted by average, non-witty, do-nothing people such as I are becoming less and less interesting to me.
Strange.

I'm finding that I don't really seem to care about them.
...Or I get quite frustrated.
Hmm.

I wrapped presents today.
It wasn't that fun.
I asked chacha how to wrap a back scratcher.
I didn't take the advice... I wrapped it as if it were candy.

My little get together [i don't really want to call it a party...] didn't happen today.
I'm thinking January 5th.
It's far from now.

Jennifer baked me a cake.
Red Velvet. Green icing. Red sprinkles.
"To Jil"

I don't want it to be a mask.

I talked to someone today.
Other than the usual people.
Or... I guess the usual person.

I thought I came to the conclusion that...
Yes, I'm right when I say,
"No one seems to care about me and how I feel enough to not care about what he thinks."
Except for a few exceptions... mostly females.
And Kris Barizo.
:]

I've also realized that I've become a very emotional person.
As well as an observational one.
And a clever one.

My dad didn't go to the choir show today.

And he didn't want to watch the recording when I got home.
Oh well.

Had my college math final today.
I think I did pretty well.
Anatomy final tomorrow.
History and English on Wednesday.
AP Psych and ASL on Thursday.
Nothing on Friday beside chilling in College Math and choir... which means I'll be heading to the dance room.

Good day today.
I know there should be more to blog about.
There really was... I don't remember anything though.
Forgetful me.

I ate peanut butter sandwiches and fishsticks today for brain food.
Let's do it again tomorrow.

I'll upload choir videos tomorrow too.

I'm never going to order any clothes cheaper than $30 on yesstyle ever again.
Thin clothed bastards. Freakin... make it look at warm and cozy in their pictures...
But NOOOOO. Thinner than a wifebeater.

- The girl with the green scarf. ;D haha.

K, gonna shower now.

Browsing...

And... I now I want more turtlenecks.
Mmm. Cozy.
I want to get new black boots too. Or white ones.
Clothes are too nice.
faksjdfskdjf.

Oh. And... I'm growing out my hair. Don't let me cut it.
Maybe I should try curling me hair again.
Hmmm.

My virtual Christmas tree is pissing me off.
It never loads. Waste of my time.

Oh no. This is bad, real bad, Michael Jackson.
I think I'm becoming more and more tempted to post directly on tumblr.
Ehgahd.

da da dun dun dun da da dun dun dun da da dun duuun dun dun dun

[PS] Saw Kei's group performance on saturday... oh man. they missed me.

Finally!

Was able to purchase my clothes online. Wooh.
Should come in around... Dec. 15th.
That's such a long time.

Feels like Christmas.

Disappointing turned fun.

Black Friday was... not that great.
Didn't buy anything except for a bunch of $2 DVDs at WalMart.
None of the clothing stores at the mall had anything nice.
Waiting in their long lines didn't seem worth it either.
Ugh. I was super duper tired.

Got to hang out with Michael though.
[Shame on Mark and Dat.]
Then went home at 10:00AM.
Michael almost dozed off in the car.
We watched Monster-In-Law and Stomp the Yard [Michael thought this was You Got Served. Lol].
Then we played some wii.
Took a bike ride with my bradres [my spanish word for brothers].
Ended up being a very enjoyable day.

Probably because it's...
HAPPY EIGHT MONTHS.
Thank you for eight months of amazing, Michael.
With you, I've experienced jealousy, anger and disappointment.
But because of all that, I also now know what it feels like to worry about someone so much.
To want so much more for one person. I've felt patience, pure happiness and enchantment since I've been with you.
You've taught me that special kind of love.
And I can't thank you enough for that.
I love you, Michael Ho.

Happy Tofurkey Day.

I thank God for...

My mother because no matter how strict or demanding she can get, she basically is the glue to our family. We need her. We can't keep running our lives without her. She knows what's going on in every single one of our lives. Without her, we wouldn't have a clue what to do.

My dad for working so hard all the time. Seriously. ALL THE TIME. He works so much and so hard. He's not around a lot, he misses our birthdays, some holidays and some choir concerts and award ceremonies, but I know it's because he's working hard to let my brothers and me have a good life.

Joel because he never stops smiling and he's taught me so much about being different.
Same thing goes for Jeric. Even though we fight so much, he's taught me how important it is to be patient and understanding and to be responsible.

Michael Ho because he's made me the happiest I've felt in a long time. He makes me smile even when he's not around because I always think about him and all the things he's done for me. [One more day.]

Veeno because, even though we haven't talk talked in forever, you're still the cousin I can relate to the most. I can still count on you to laugh at stupid stuff with me and watch youtube videos and dramas over the phone.

Rittz because you always encourage me and teach me about what I have yet to experience. You sing with me in public bathrooms and dance with me at weird places like Kit's house.

Graee because I can believe I am the funniest, wittiest person in the world and all you do is call me a loser. Hahah. Plus, we've had a couple of good times. :P

Nick Abat. Thank you for not hating me and for my panda pillow that I still use.

Andrea Aduna because, like Jennifer, I can go to her when I need her. [She also helps me with my outfits and makeup and such. I am very thankful for that. ;P ] Love yah.

Kris Barizo. Are you're still my bfxinfinity=undefined? Thank you for waiting for me and walking with me after sixth period. You’re a good friend whom I miss talking to.

Jennifer Bugarin because I can always ALWAYS ALWAYS count on her if I ever need someone to talk to. She's one of the greatest people I know and I love her lots.

Andrew Domondon because you talk [TALK] to me and walk with me too! :D I’m just happy I can call you my friend because you’re such an awesome one. Seriously. No. Seriously.

Tyler Nguyen because you’re da best. ‘Nuff said.

Justin Smith because he tried.

Rembrandt Victa because you taught me things I didn’t know I needed to be taught.

I'm not done yet.

Hmm...

I just realized, I don't have much respect for very many people.
There's a small few.
Maybe a several few.
But I know there's a lot of people I thought were really awesome,
but now it's just kinda like... what are you doing?

Hmph. Too bad.

This is Hollywood.

Alright then.
Yesterday, the fambam and I took a trip to Hollywood. More specifically, Griffith Park Observatory, Walk of Fame, other random parts and some of Beverly Hills.

So. The observatory was actually really cool. [Except when they told me I couldn't bring my Peppermint White Chocolate Mocha inside, so I had to throw it AWAY! D: ]
They had this amazing theater where they gave us a little presentation of the stars and space.
Super informative, but it's cool 'cause their seats make you lie down kinda. And they have this circular projector in the middle of the theater, and it projects onto the dome-shaped ceiling.
The rest of the observatory was alright. I liked their displays. They're interactive! :D

Anyways... after that we went to the Hollywood Walk of Fame.
I was so amazed when I got there... it's embarrassing. Haha.
Well... yeah. I didn't know people dressed up for money there.
Best ones were Bumblebee, Michael Jackson, Pirates of the Caribbean.
They go all out. You can tell they deserve their money.
The fails: Korean Bruce Lee with red marker scratches on his chest, Catwomen [yes, women] with man voices and Mr. Incredible.
So. Mr. Incredible is supposed to be this fat ass, balding white man.
The one that gave me a high five, grabbed my hand, asked me where I was from, pulled me into his armpit and told my dad to take a picture of us was this skinny, Italian-looking man, with a pretty okay head of hair.
Get the eff off of me.

Right so. Story about Michael Jackson.
There's a line for pictures right?
So... this out of town girl with a crazy insane lisp [don't want to hate on anyone with a lisp, but i'm sorry. the girl herself was bizarre] sees MJ and is like, "Oh my goodness! Iths Michael Jackson! Leth's take a pitcthure. I'm thooo exthited!" So she walks up to him, while he's taking a picture with someone else mind you, and asks him if she and her friends can get a picture with him. I'm like... "Helloo, lady. I don't know where you're from, but here in California, we wait our turn in line." Well... I wish I said that to her. I just kinda glared at the back of her head while Michael Jackson told her she needed to wait as he took my two bucks because BOOYAH! My turn with MJ. When we talked to me... I heard a faint... hispanic accent? Very interesting.

**EDIT
Like you told me to.

My College Weekend

SO TIRING.

Eeefff. I just want to sleep right now.

But now, I have to finish homework. Yay!

-_-

Yesterday, we went to Cal State Long Beach.

Lots of stairs. Lots of uphill.

There was testing.

The tour guide person was kinda crap.

But then again... it's just Kuya Paul's friend.

"Is he like... muscle big? Or fat big?"

"Fat big."

We went to this little plaza place with a bunch of restaurants.

We bought food from Lee's Sandwiches.

FREAKING SPICY SAUCE WITH THE SPRING ROLLS!

Uuuuuugh.

I bought a Kirby lanyard at Tokyo Lifestyle.

Ponyo was playing.

Then we went to UCI.

Best campus out of the four... except for the size. Almost too big.

Too much walking. Seriously.

I wish there were trams or something. 

I like it there though.

Their dorms are really nice.

After that, we got some Yogurtland goodness.

Taste tested this green tea drink infused with some jasmine orange something stuff.

Really good.

Went to AJ's.

Watched Casanova and Dodgeball with Rittz and Veeno while he was at work.

Got to play with a real live gun. 

I locked myself in handcuffs.

Rittz got "arrested."

Watched Pacquiao's victory on HBO. Wooh.

Cotto has nice sportmanship. :]

Anyone else see his son give us two cute little peace signs?

Today, didn't want to wake up.

Woke up, fixed my hair.

Almost melted away my cousin's butterfly candle with the straightener.

Finished getting ready... went to Pomona.

Checked out at the animals they had there.

Horses and sheep and fishies and birdies.

It was cool. Not my school though.

Went to CSUF.

Aggy and Rittz showed us around.

Saw their undergroud bowling ally and all that jazz.

Their recreational center is really nice.

I like it.

Got subway.

Talked to Michael

Finished Aggy's thai tea.

Went to her sorority's car wash.

Went home.

Now it's time for homework.

I got really lazy... can you tell?

In Anaheim for the weekend for...

a college roadtrip type of deal.

Going to UCI and Cal State Long Beach tomorrow.

Sunday, it's Cal Poly Pomona and CSUF

I'm currently using Rittz's laptop to get my internet fix.

I made a pathetic attempt to finish my college math crap homework earlier, but Veeno disracted me. It's her fault.

I'm wearing my boo's beanie. It's warm.

That's the first time I called him boo.

I was watching Degrassi earlier. Johnny calls Alli/Ally (however you spell her name) "boo" for nude pictures of her.

Just a random little thing I thought I'd share with you.

LAWL.

"Justin is my bitch."

So. I'm kinda looking forward to some froyo tomorrow. Yogurtland.

Cheaper with cute tokidoki whatevers.

Veeno says, "At the mall... my mom and I talked to this one gay, white, japanese and korean guy. It was cool!"

I'm a loser that talks to Veeno on aim even though she's sitting right behind me.

And she's the only one I'm talking to.

She sent me this:

Is that cute?

Just had an intense game of Bejeweled.

Yes. That's what I've been spending all my time doing.
Forget annotating and AP Psych homework.

So today... in College Alg 105...
My college buddy Matt [who calls me Jil Jackpot... lol idk.] and... this one Asian kid/man whose name idk, had an INTENSE conversation about Call of Duty. More specifically COD 4.
Apparently... they got their copies a week early.
Aaannnd... Mr. Matt has already had a "flawless game". 22-0.
Asian kid says, "Daaaaaang."
Then they asked me, "Hey Jil! You play Call of Duty, right?"
Yeeeea-no. Lmao.

I'm gonna go watch SYTYCD now.
Toodles.

I love Omegle.

You: tell me something interesting

Stranger: like what? what kind of something

You: anything. a random fact... something about you... rant about someone you hate or idk
Stranger: i "hate" my sisters boyfriend because he beat the shit out of her knocking her unconcious(sp?) and causing her to have a miscarriage

Three years...

... of ballet and jazz, however long ago...
isn't enough to make me a dancer.
I am merely a supporter.
That's nice.

I'm paying $200

to keep my place in Jazz Choir.

So... thanks to those that went to the mini-practice-choir "concert" thing during 7th period today.
We needed it.. and we appreciate it.
It was pretty much a... fail... though.

I've wasted too much time already.
Need to get annotations and the news report done for EXPO.
I'll be in bed by midnight.
Yay.

Counting down the days 'til Thanksgiving Break.
Gobble Gobble.

Jil, you need to shut up.

Stay out of their business.

Update:

Option One - Pay $200 to restart the confirmation process [without a refund for paying this year] and go to the choir concert to avoid failing the course. [ps] Go to the retreat next year when I won't know anyone...

Option Two - Go to retreat, save $200 and fail choir.

Reading.

You know... something like that can make you fall in love.
Curious?

So today... I still don't know if I'm getting kicked out of Jazz Choir.
Mrs. Page still has to get permission from Chris...
Geez, Chris. Why this weekend?!
However, I'm pretty content with whichever way this goes.
If I can miss a few hours of the retreat, I'll have to get picked up by Josh [Michael, don't freak out.] or whoever is willing to drive a total of four or five hours for me, do my thing at the jazz concert [ON NOV 7th.], go back to that mountains, and then I will have to go to a make-up, one day retreat sometime.
If I can't... I enjoy my full three-day retreat, get booted out of choir and switch into Adv. Dance.
So... I'm okay with whatever.
Kinda anxious about what this weekend has in store for me.
Hopefully the retreat isn't... boring.
Otherwise... that would suck.

Yeah... so Terrell asked me if I've waxed my legs before.
Interesting.

New week.

Let's make it a good one... and...
Jil, let's try not to be a bitch, mkay?

Hi, My name is Rollercoaster.

Dang. Twists and turns.
So many unnecessary emotions.

Today was one of the worst feelings I've ever felt.
Other than that little freak out I had some weeks ago. [That was the absolute WORST ever.]
(PS. You don't know what I'm talking about.)
I'm so sorry.
I was so stupid. I didn't know that it would affect you so much.
I was so scared when you wouldn't pick up your phone.
But you did... eventually... and I'm glad.
Because now everything's okay.
I know better now.
I don't want to make you upset again.
So I promise it won't happen again.
I love you.
Hey guess what tomorrow is?
<3

In other news...
I've been finding out info about old friends that I really wish I could fix.
It sucks knowing you can't do anything about it. Like... A LOT.
I wonder what would've happened if I had continued to hang out with them?

So. Dilemma.
Choir concert?
Or retreat?
If I pick the choir concert... I'll miss out on one of the best experiences I'll ever have.
If I pick the retreat... I'm booted out of Jazz Choir. You are so HARSH, Mrs. Page!
-_____- Wtf.
This is one of those ehgahd, lemme cry in a corner before I solve this, why, effing a, why?! moments.
I need a sign.

Jennifer: Cheer up, love!
I'm trying to be here for you.

Annotating takes up like... 58.32% of my day.
Die EXPO.

EDIT:
[ps] RIP MVHS Band Director, Rick Lorenzen.
Didn't know you. Never wanted to know you. Seriously. Why would I?
But... after writing out a bunch of crap about my life and then reading the school's breaking news...
I know my crap is nothing compared to a bunch of other shit that's goes on.

One Moment More

Old song.
One of my go-to ones.



Hold me
Even though I know you're leaving
And show me
All the reasons you would stay

I don't know.

Everything just feels weird right now.

I'm not really focusing in school.
I'm always tired, but it's hard to make myself sleep.
I've been feeling so frustrated and just... mad.
I get stressed so easily with clubs, finishing homework so that it's perfect, helping around the house, tutoring my brothers, trying to make everyone happy.
It's not really working.
It's pretty much... failing.

I don't know what it is.
I don't know what I need.

I keep comparing myself to... people.
It kinda sucks [blue is a sad color...?] when I think about it.
'Cause I fall pretty short.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG.
I just wanted someone to talk to.
And usually, I go to you.

I should be one of the happi-effin-est [yellow is a happy color] people on earth right now.
Why? 'Cause I'm finally going to my first high school dance.
HOMECOMING. :D
Is that sad? That my first dance is when I'm a junior?
Whatever... I don't care 'cause I'm going and it's all good.
Maybe I'm got my hopes up a little too much...
Let's tone it down.

I got my nails done at Michael's padre's nailshop.
Starline, by Sams, Great clips, Walgreen's, that area.
You should go. If you know Michael, you get 20%. Wooh.
Hi! My name is Jil and I'm a walking talking ad.

I need to finish homework.

I just heard an announcement on the answering machine.
"Hi this is blah blah Murrieta Unified School District blah shake out blah tomorrow blah simulate blah join other schools in the state something."
But seriously, I'm really scared about this earthquake we're supposed to have.

So I'm not watching Harry Potter today.

Just... doing nothing at home.
Being incredibly bored.
Avoiding homework.
Which I really should be working on.
I don't know.
Maybe I'm waiting for something exciting to happen.

I watched The Good Doctor at school with Michael, Jenn, Tim, Richard, others.
Pretty amusing. More interesting then amusing.
Danica did amazing. What a weirdo.
So... I kept telling people last year that I really wanted to audition for the musical in the spring.
Never did.
This year's different. I'm really gonna do it.
Because I really like the musical they picked this year.
Rittz did a couple scenes from it in her summer theater program and it was fun.
I got to watch their rehearsals, so I practically know a scene by heart.
You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown.
I'm gonna go for Lucy or Sally.
Kristin Chenoweth played Sally and she's effing adorable.
Maybe I'll be Lucy. But I really like Sally too! I can't be picky though.
Since it'll be my first time.
I'm probably gonna get some ensemble spot though.
Oh well.



I love her.
Almost as much as 2NE1.

So. I'm gonna not do homework for like... half an hour.
Idk. Maybe I'll start it?
DIE HOMEWORK.

Late Start.

Went to Drea's.
Starbucks.
SUPER TARGET FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER.
We recorded some videos, took some pictures.
Bought Michael his vanilla bean frap at the Starbucks in Super Target.
Was almost late to school.
Ran to class.
Made Kris mad because I didn't wear my orange vneck.
I'M SORRY BFxINFINITY=UNDEFINED!
I couldn't wear it. I was wet and dirty.
D:

So now I'm waiting for Michael to finish eating.

Body Worlds tomorrow.
Yesss.

D: Nooooo.

So there's no Bboy Feud tomorrow.
If I hadn't found out what a certain someone was planning...
(*cough cough* Michael *cough* homecoming *cough* banana pancakes)
I wouldn't have been that disappointed...
But now I'm like... D: NOOOOO. :[
That would've been so amazingly cute!
Aw... thought that counts.
My boyfriend is the cutest, sweetest boyfriend everrr.

[16:56] YOmikeHO: julian says i hate bboys also
[16:56] YOmikeHO: haha
[16:56] yo tofu ball: WHAAAT
[16:56] yo tofu ball: NOOO
[16:56] yo tofu ball: that's not allowed

Only Jil says "I hate bboys."
RAWR.

Oh yeah... who's this Ashleyy[; girl?
NO NO >:O

Nothing to do.

So I'll be waiting again tonight.
No biggie.
I'll just do homework...
Again. Oh joy.

Today's Rembrandt's birthday.
Happy Birthday!

So my plans for the rest of the week:
Wednesday
- Late start - Drea's casa then Starbucks
- Prep the choir room during lunch for Matt's jazz visit
- Invisible Children meeting after school
- ASL Meet'n'greet
Thursday
- FIRST FIELD TRIP IN FOREVER to BodyWorlds in SD.
- Club Mainstream?
- ASL Club after school
- Bboy Feud.
[I don't think I'm going home this whole day.]
Friday
- Watch drama's play "The Good Doctor"
Saturday
- FINALLY WATCH HARRY POTTER AT TEMEKU?!

Full-ish week.
I'm gonna go finish homework now.
Maybe.

Goodnight.

9 x 3 = 27.

9 - 3 = 6

HALF A YEAR.
This last month went by fast.
I love you so muchos.

I wish I could've seen you today.
I bet you're playing dota right now.
I'm gonna watch Dance Flick after I call you.

I miss you.

[ps] prepared something for you tomorrow!

You fail.

But I told you not to do something just because I want you to.
You have to want it too.
So obviously that means you don't.
Because I'm pretty sure you forgot.

I guess I just got my hopes up.
Expecting too much again.
Expecting you to fight back.


Hello Michael Ho!
I'm gonna buy this one shirt for you.
I think you'll like it.

Clubs and Days and Memorials, Oh my.

So yesterday, I forgot to mention...
I went to the Invisible Children meeting after school.
A club of like... seven turned into a club of like... 50 bajillion people.
Not really. But there was waaaay more people than last year.
Kathy, Michael C, Alex, April, Deena, Nick and I were the originals.
That makes me feel kinda special.
Sooo. Yeah! Make the club even bigger and come to the next meeting on Wednesday next week!

Went to the Greenpact [Environmental] meeting today.
Michael, Tyler and Andrew went.
There was a good amount of people there too.
I'm pretty excited for that club.
More than excited.
Go to the meeting on Monday next week!
It'll be fuuuun. You know you wanna.

And today is World Suicide Prevention Day.
Promote worldwide commitment and ACTION [like actually do something] to stop it.
The National Institute of Mental Health says:

What should I do if I think someone is suicidal?

If you think someone is suicidal, do not leave him or her alone. Try to get the person to seek immediate help from his or her doctor or the nearest hospital emergency room, or call 911. Eliminate access to firearms or other potential tools for suicide, including unsupervised access to medications.

Take it seriously. Seriously.

Tomorrow is September 11th!
We're having a memorial service of some sort tomorrow.
Band is playing, choir is singing, ROTC is doing something.

Then Jon wants me to "audition" for his choreo for the dance concert after school.
So I'm going to that after my ortho appointment.
[I want these braces off already.]

Now I have to go do homework.
EXPO is kicking my butt.

9909

That means this movie came out today! I'm gonna watch it.
It's not directed by Tim Burton ( :[ ) , but by Shane Acker.
Not bad, still good.
Don't get confused 'cause a lot of people are.

Acker's original short film:



So excited!
Reeeeeallly wanna watch it.
You can tell 'cause I dedicated a blog to it.

You should watch it with me.

Jokes like that aren't funny.

Especially for your girlfriend.

That really sucked.
A lot.

Goodnight.

[PS] Sucks even more that you would rather talk to strangers than me.

Hey that's good.

If i were you i would swim instead of waiting for someone to build a bridge for me.

I'm watching Camp Rock.
I'm learning how to dance.
Not really.
In my mind I am.

I only get you for three hours tomorrow.

Clubs.

Signed up for:

Club Mainstream
Club Jeepney
Invisible Children
Greenpact
ASL Club

Uhh.. Dance club...

Wtpho? I didn't know there was a Hip Hop Club table there!
Bleeeeeeeh.

Joe Jonas Dancing to Single Ladies.

What the pho!
Lmaaaoo.
This is like.. three minutes too long.

Damn. Never realized.

I never realized how much I miss talking to all my old friends until I took a little time to read through some old comments.
Good stuff.

New Goal : Revive friendships.

That's be really good.
Very good.

Okay. I'm gonna go to bed.
Michael's asleep.
I wanna sleep now, too.

Hana Hai Tatlo Shi 5.

GOOO.
So today...
Today was the five month-aversary.

I woke up extra early because Rittz texted me saying my Aunt emailed me back about a history project. Whoopie. PLUS I had to make Michael's lunch.
I made the PB&J, the grilled cheese with ham, the salmon with eggs and rice... in the shape of hearts.
Weird combo, huh?

Michael gave me a little tiny note that was inside a mini origami heart to put in my envelope necklace and also, his necklace (that was partially his mother's).
So I can "rep him" now.

So anyways.
Hello Michael Ho/Yo Mike Ho <-- This boy...
Makes me happy.
"Yeah you make me happy, make me very very happy."
You're worth it all.
I love you.
Happy Five Months. :]

[PS] I found this on DeviantArt.
This is my stomach whenever you're around.

I ACCIDENTLY CLICKED OUT OF RESTAURANT CITY

That was Michael.
Yeah. Freaking out about Restaurant City.
It's the new craze.
If you don't have your own virtual restaurant with a quicky name and little people coming to eat digital food, pee in unisex bathrooms and play video games as they wait for a table to eat royal sushi, then get one.



So JRawr watched Ponyo today.
Lucky bastard.

Late start tomorrow. That's the only thing keeping my mother from yelling at me to turn of the computer and go to sleep. Ahaaa.
Weird late start though. Right when school starts, we have break.
Wtf?



So Jenn, Drea and I are eating at Denny's tomorrow.
Jenn says to bring the camera so we can make videos.
I kinda want a nice stack of pancakes with strawberries and whipped cream tomorrow.

Mmm,

I bruise easily.

Shiiiet.
So. Today. Very good day.

Planned on going to the blacklight dance on Friday.
But no, Michael just came over and we watched Labor Pains.


Oooh sexy.

Then Michael came over today, my mother bought us milk tea with boba!
We watched clips of Miss Congeniality, Brokeback Mountain, Mr. Bean...
Yaaay.

And Michael's dad and his girlfriend saw us biking around the block with my brothers.
Hehehehehe.

Michael's rapping.
Ouch. There's a lot of Michael in this entry.

Shut up, Jil.

OMG HE'S BLOND.

GDragon. You're blond!
This beginning kinda sounds like Right Round - Flo Rida
He's like.. the asian male verison of Lady Gaga.

Anyways... I'M FINALLY IN AP PSYCH!
Woooooh.

Anyways.. homework now.
More later.

:D

Madre,

School supplies shopping is not a good excuse to not let me go to the jam on saturday.
>:O wtf.

So... Expo and Anatomy homework...
Not doing it.
I should be.
But it can wait... 'til like... 6:00?

Oh no. This is bad.
Real bad, Michael Jackson.

Remember, Jilian?
We talked about this...
Be on your best behavior and do all your homework the day it's assigned so you can go to the jam!

So. This College Math 105 thing.
It's EASY as pi.
Ahaaaaa. Get it?
I'm sorry. That was really bad.

I'm gonna go... not do homework.
But I'll do homework in like... five minutes.

...Maybe.

Escuela.

Tomorrow.
OMGEE.

The neighbors are gonna hear you!

said my father.
Why?

Lmao.

Rittz and I just finished watching Push [GREAT MOVIE WITH THE LAMEST ENDING EVER], but my little brother, Jeric, fell asleep on the couch. So... being the loving Ate that I am, tried to gently wake him up.
I massaged his forehead.. that didn't work.
I tickled his feet... that didn't work.
I rubbed his arm... no.
I shook him. No
I shook him really hard. NO
So... I finally SCREAMED at him. Like... seriously YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!! And I slapped the couch. Yeah. I did that three times. THREE. Count'em. THREE. One two three. Uno Dos Tres.

Still... nothing.

Wtf.

If you're gonna go fishing...

I prefer that you eat what you catch rather than...
hit it against a rock, the ground, a tree, slice it open and then chuck it back in the water.
Mkay, pumpkin?

You make fish scared.


Oh yes.
I went bowling with the fambam and Rittz today.
Jeric - 72
Joel - 103
Rittz - 98
ME - 130

pwned. Not really. I'm sorry.

Registration with the freshmen tomorrow.

Yaaay.
I get to wait in line with all the little niners.
But at least I'll finally know what my schedule is.
And I can take my ID picture.
Bangs down or to the side?
Hmm. Difficult decision.

Soo... went to Kit's house today.
Because apparently... there was supposed to be PRACTICE.
For a pep rally.
And my cousin wanted to meet some of my friends.
*AHEM* Tyler and Rembrandt. *AHEM*
But no... she just met Kit.
Because people failed to show up!

So uh... I learned some, uh.. choreo.
Then we just chilled because the heat and yeah.
And we got boba.
At the Juice Bar.
Owned by Korean people.
Kit and I said "Kamsahamnida."

YES!

[PS] I pwn Michael and Rittz at Scene It Uno Stacko Trivia.
Yes, It exists.

I'm hungry.

So Rittz and I went to Stater Bros. yesterday.
And we found the oddest fruit ever.
Like... these green tomatoes. And UFO peaches.

Look at this! They're flat! Wtf?

Anyways... here are some pictures of the food we ate at the OC Fair.
Deep fried and expensive. Mmmm. Yummy.

Blossoming Onions - $7.00

Funnel Cake with Strawberries - $9.00
This sausage thing... [ew...] - $8.00
Deep Fried Oreos - 4 for $4.50

Being the only log on the log ride that got drenched from head to toe from a random tidal wave...

...and JRawr's bakla pictures.

Priceless. :D

Wtf.

Have fun, you dick.


We don't say the right things anymore.
11:11
One day he'll realize you're worth it, or you'll realize he isn't.

You're awful, I love you.

I like that word.
Junkpunch > Dropkick. Says me.
Because I want to junkpunch Scarlett Johansson's character, Anna Marks, in He's Just Not That Into You.
Every time I watch that movie I want to junkpunch the TV.
Yeah.
:D I hate situations like that. SO MUCH.
Even in movies.
Yeah. That much.
Be scared.


So. I'm in Corona still. Going home today though! I miss people. Lots and lots.
I need to figure out my schedule too. So... there's work to do. Ehgahd.
Oh yeah! I need to upload all my pictures too!
From Rittz's 18th birthday, Rittz's friend's going-away/house-warming party and the OC Fair.
There's practice on Monday . I'm bringing Rittz.
Other than that... I don't think I have very many plans.
But we'll make them.

MAYBE I'LL FINALLY GET TO WATCH HARRY POTTAH!
And get some frozen yogurt. Mmmmm.


I had boba today. It was okay boba.
Probably because it was a donut shop... Hmm.
The best place to get boba?
Ten Ren's Tea Time.
Craving? Yes. Yes I am.


JRawr is sweaty and needs to go shower.
[14:12] jr catanghal: IM FREAKN SOAKED
[14:13] yo tofu ball: WHA?!
[14:13] yo tofu ball: WHY?!
[14:14] jr catanghal: sweaty lol
[14:14] yo tofu ball: eeeew.
[14:14] yo tofu ball: go shower
[14:14] jr catanghal: my heart is beating mega fast
[14:14] jr catanghal: imma go shower after i cool down haha
[14:15] jr catanghal: imma cause an abnormal heartbeat if i go shower now o_o
[14:15] yo tofu ball: thank you.
[14:15] yo tofu ball: what does pedantic mean again?
[14:15] jr catanghal: LOL
[14:15] jr catanghal: SHHH
[14:15] jr catanghal: freakn mocking me
[14:15] jr catanghal: lol


Oh yes. Rittz is so happy that she can wear socks with the size 7 vans she got for her birthday.

Authentic Lo Pro.

She kept calling them "Classics." Lmao. She says they're better than chucks. She feels much lighter. Walking ad.

I'm so screwed. I'm screwed.

Mkay. So...
I haven't gotten my schedule yet.
But I know that there's some conflict going on.
I want need to take duel enrollment math since I'm dropping AP USH.
That's 7th period.
I wanted to take Jazz Choir because I demand four years of choir and I can't be in Chamber because I'll need two classes available... and I don't.
Jazz is 7th period also.
I also wanted to take Adv. Dance Choreo because it would be another class with Michael.
That's 7th period also! Shiiiiiiiit.
So... I'm trying to see if I can switch from duel enrollment to AP Calc.
But I need to know if there was summer work. Or else I'm screwed. And SHIIIIIT.
Either I switch or I stay in duel enrollment and get crap electives.
Damnit.

Oh yes.
The OC Fair was fun-ish decent.
I'll have pictures with nice little descriptions up from that later.

Webcam boredom.

We were really really really bored.
So we got a little gussied up.
And took these pictures with Veeno's webcam. We ate Good Humor Strawberry Shortcake Bars.
Mmmm. Yummy.
I cut it a bit short so that I could talk to Michael before he slept.
Once he did, I tried to interact with Rittz's friend, Jon Jon, on the webcam.
It wasn't... that interesting.
So I left.
And went on Facebook and Myspace.
I'm neglecting Myspace.
I'm sorry, Myspace. I'm lagging to upload our other summer photos, too.
Suuuuuuuuucks.

Oh yes, my cousins showed me this video today.
It's really funny. I lawled.



So. I think you should go to the OC Fair with my cousins and me on Thursday.
It'll be fun. We can get fat on deep fried candy bars and oreos and funnel cake.
Yummy. I'm craving now. Doesn't that look good?!

One of the most boring summer days of my whole life.

Hi. My name is Jil and I'm stuck in Aliso Viejo at Veeno's house doing nothing and it's really very hot.
I've been sitting in front of the computer, eating a Popsicle, sweating, playing random games of Facebook, talking to people on AIM and chatting with total strangers on Omegle.com. Yay!

I am currently talking to a 22 year old man named Martin who lives in the Netherlands.
[Funny. My cousins and I watched the movie Five Fingers. The main character was a man named Martjin, who's from Holland aka "The Netherlands."] Very strange and interesting.
Hmm. Weird. He's offering to show me a picture of himself.
Good thing it's omegle and I don't have to talk to him again.

Happy Four Months.

Maybe I screwed it all up.
Maybe I ruined it.
Maybe I shouldn't have said anything.
I'm sorry. I've just been so confused and hurting and wanting to know how you felt about me.
Maybe it was nagging you too much or not communicating enough.
Today was the not so perfect day for all this.
I know you said you lose interest.
But I'm praying so much that you won't.

I'll just wait.
And hope that you'll just talk to me.
Because I'm already regretting what I brought up.
I didn't know it would hurt this much.

I don't know what to do.
They say to listen to your heart.
I can't hear it though.
I can't hear it beating.
I feel dead.

Happy Four Months, Michael.
I really really really love you.
And I miss you so much.

Excerpts and Closure.

EXCERPT FROM Just Say IT:
"I know we were both having the same problems, considering the fact they're both well together all the time. I dont think he does it intentionally, like I said, at least he still calls you you know? Like you said "They think just cause they spend an amount of time with us they can go hang out for the same amount." In a way its kinda fair, but for my case its a second chance. Reassurance is key to knowing that I made the right choice and not just wasting my time. But I dont think he's going to do anything babe. You have to talk to him about it you know? If you can't get your point across then.. I'm not going to say anything. But I know he'll understand, he has more experience and he loves you alot.
Call me if you need talking too Bbygrl."

Today. Today started off as an ordinary day.
I woke up, had breakfast, showered, called Michael, went to Veeno's.
Now I'm using the computer at Veeno's.
I'm currently having a much needed talk with Jrawr, bfxinfinity=und, Tyler and Rembrandt.
Especially Rembrandt. It was a much needed talk.

irtylerr (11:35:16 PM): yeah

irtylerr (11:35:17 PM): da best

irtylerr (11:35:34 PM): do you know about jils blog

remvicbboy (11:36:46 PM): no

remvicbboy (11:36:49 PM): never heard

remvicbboy (11:36:51 PM): that's rare

remvicbboy (12:13:26 AM): craaap.

remvicbboy (12:13:28 AM): okay

remvicbboy (12:17:03 AM): crap jil's blogs are scary. her oldest ones

remvicbboy (12:17:06 AM): makes me feel like shit

irtylerr (12:17:13 AM): about you?

remvicbboy (12:17:18 AM): yeah

remvicbboy (12:17:19 AM): fuck

EXCERPT FROM Rembrandt Joshua Portin Victa:
"I’m sorry Jil. For being a dick. Not commiting. Not doing shit at all. FOR WASTING YOUR PRECIOUS TIME TOO. I now realized I wasted everyone’s fucking time. I’m sorry for letting your cousins down, I’m sorry for giving you up. I’m sorry that I was acting like I was FUCKING AROUND in our little relationship. I’m sorry for not even doing anything about it after the whole “ending point”. I didn’t say one word, make eye contact. Tried to avoid you like being a wanted criminal from the police. I wish I actually did something. I guess my pussiness will show on this blog on this online blogging shit."

yo tofu ball: they scared you?
remvicbboy: yeah. they were pretty bad haha. especially that one FCUKING part.
remvicbboy: woo that's really really scared me
yo tofu ball: oooh
yo tofu ball: hah. yeah. right. i was a little ticked.
remvicbboy: yeah i could tell haha. man, i'm so lame. i could've gotten over this so long ago.
yo tofu ball: yeah. we both could've.
remvicbboy: yeah. woo. i guess i'm all good now (:
yo tofu ball: yay!

yo tofu ball: i'm glad this happened.
remvicbboy: what the heck. i'm not. this sucks!
yo tofu ball: i feel relieved. for some reason.. i feel like a piece of me is coming back because we finally talked about what happened.
yo tofu ball: it still sucks
yo tofu ball: but i'm still glad it happened.
yo tofu ball: i'm sorry. is that not something you wanted hear after writing that blog?
remvicbboy: no actually that was perfect. just what i wanted to hear.
remvicbboy: thanks for hearing me out (:
yo tofu ball: of course. :] i'm really not one to hold a grudge.

And now we talk about change. How it sucks.
So many things are just changing.
Tyler and I have made a promise to keep in touch after high school.

yo tofu ball: promise.
irtylerr: promise.
irtylerr: as long as one of us
irtylerr: doesnt move to like maine
irtylerr: or something
yo tofu ball: lmao
yo tofu ball: seriously.
irtylerr: i dont think we'll lose touch
yo tofu ball: i really hope not. i'm gonna try hard to prevent it
irtylerr: yeah

Guitar Hero?

I didn't know playing guitar on Guitar Hero took this long.
I thought it was gonna be a quick song.
It's been like... what? 45 minutes?

I'm really bored, reading FML.
Getting a little tired. But that always goes away.
My feet hurt, along with my neck.

I DGAF. But sometimes it still hurts.

[13:25] jr catanghal: ppl always say its about trust and what not
[13:25] jr catanghal: but that's an excuse, the only way for someone to trust you is to earn their trust over time or be reassuring
[13:25] jr catanghal: and that's not reassuring at all
[13:25] jr catanghal: i mean
[13:26] jr catanghal: its only human to be a bit disappointed

**EDIT
Had a good talk with Kris [Thank you, bfxinfinity=und. Love ya!] and Jrawr today.
The very wise Jrawr.

Idk. Just knowing that I can't be there for you like she totally can annoys the crap out of me. I've told people both sides of the story, trying to see if I'm truly wrong for being upset, but I still hear, "Aren't you pissed?" or "What the fuck, seriously?" I don't think I'm so afraid of what might happen because you told me nothing will. I'm more afraid of what might.... stop.
DGAF

In Over My Head.

I don't know.
I think I'm just stressing.
There's a lot of stuff going on.
I have to make the mix for my Aunt's birthday party on Saturday.
The songs Veeno sent me were faulty... so she has to resend them to me. Ehgahd.
I have to finish it by Friday...
Oh yeah. Veeno might not even be able to go to practice on Friday either.
And I think Ness is just... not doing it.
LAKSJDSNADhaLKAHDKAJSD. Ugh.

So yeah... I guess I'm in a pretty bad mood.
It doesn't help that my mom made me a schedule for today.
A schedule. For summer. The ehf. Whyy!?
It's annoying.

Idk what's going on with you. With me. With us.
Things changed.

Tyler, I am so disappointed!

Whyy? Why are you so lazy?!
It's because Michael is your father, huh?

Speaking of Michael, I miss him.
He said maybe he'll be online tonight so we can chat.
I really hope he does go on. My hopes are up... way high.

[00:24] mr barizo: hurry
[00:24] mr barizo: say something mean
[00:24] mr barizo: you need to
[00:25] yo tofu ball: IDK!
[00:25] yo tofu ball: I'M NOT A MEAN PERSON! NOT LIKE HIM!
[00:26] mr barizo: remvicbboy: mean person MY ASSHAIR
[00:27] yo tofu ball:

[00:26] yo tofu ball: eeeeeeh. do you have worse asshair than mark?
[00:26] remvicbboy: no shh

[00:27] mr barizo: LOL

So... Today, I got dropped off at Rittz's house and we went to our like... 40 year old cousin's place to hav dance practice for my Auntie's birthday thing on the 25th.
It was pretty fun. We learned some line dances.
We played with their dog Bebot who is sooo adorable! She loves fetch and tug of war. Very feisty.
We also worked on the dance that the four of us, VJAK, are going to be performing. Ehgahd.
There's two 2ne1 songs. I love them. They're so cute.

I went to Rittz's friend's party today.
Indian family. Pretty cool.
Interesting food. Really spicy. Takes some getting used to.
I tried a virgin margarita. I was pretty okay. Random: I want a smoothie. That'd be good.
Some people started jerkin'. Interesting.

I GOT TO TALK TO MICHAEL TODAY! or uh... TONIGHT!
On aim though. The connection on the ship sucks.

[00:53] YOmikeHO: jil
[00:54] yo tofu ball: MICHAEL!
[00:54] YOmikeHO: HI
[00:54] YOmikeHO: ;]
[00:54] yo tofu ball: I MISS YOU!
[00:54] yo tofu ball: SO MUCH!
[00:54] YOmikeHO: DUDE
[00:54] YOmikeHO: I FREAKIN MISS YOU MORE
[00:54] yo tofu ball: NO YOU DONT!
[00:54] YOmikeHO: i only have an hour im so sorry
[00:54] YOmikeHO: till 1 45
[00:54] yo tofu ball: :[
[00:54] yo tofu ball: okay

[02:00] YOmikeHO: I LOVE YOU TOO!!
[02:00] YOmikeHO: :]
[02:00] yo tofu ball: hehe
[02:01] yo tofu ball: I LOVE YOU! I MISS YOU! BE SAFE! GOODNIGHT
[02:01] YOmikeHO: :]
[02:01] YOmikeHO: right back atcha
[02:01] yo tofu ball: :[ i dont want you to go.
[02:03] Meebo Message: YOmikeHO is offline

I know I'm not gonna get a good sleep tonight.

Michael's on his four day cruise to Mexico.
This is the end of day one. Three more to go.
I hate not being able to talk to him on the phone and say goodnight.
I miss him so much already.
Apparantly he went to a teen club.
I hope he's having a lot of fun. But uh... not too much fun. ;]
I'm praying that he stays safe too.

Anyways... today was Annica's birthday party.
I got to see her, Danica, Richard, Alana, Flynn, Jackson, Ericka, Kristina, Kyle...
I think that's everyone.
There was this little boy, I never got to figure out his name.
He was Annica's mom's co-worker's son.
He was adorable! I got to play with him and protect his young, innocent eyes from Battle Royale playing on the TV.
We ended up setting up Annica's brother's xbox in her room so he could watch Kung Fu Panda.
He was so cute! He was playing with dog and whale stuffed animals.
And he would come find me and pull me over to keep him company.
Danica asked me, "Jil, are you ready to be a mom?"
Slow down there. :P

I'm trying to stay up longer.
Maybe there's a chance Michael will call.

I have this dance practice thing tomorrow for my Auntie's birthday coming up.
Ballroom apparantly. But then there's the group performance I'm doing with VJAK too.
Gotta teach Graee everything. Here's hoping she'll pick it up quick.
We don't have much time. So I'm excited I'll get to see my cousins tomorrow.

Apparantly I'm going to the circus on the 26th. Ehgahd.
Hoping to bring my chingus with me. :]

Anyways... I suppose that's all for now.
I'm gonna spend a bit more time playing games on Facebook.
I'm still convinced he will call... Heh.
I'll sleep soon...ish.

Goodnight.

I miss you, Michael.

Mkay. So my laptop is on.

So let's blog.
Today.. er... yesterday was Jessica's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA. Went to her pool party.
Michael, Jennifer, Danica, Annica, Richard, Krispy, Tim, Andrew, Mark, Peter and Tommy were there. Was that everyone? Well, it was fun.
My brothers went. Along with my MADRE. Jeric cheated during Marco Polo.
Or... "Mikeho Polo."
And I'm pretty sure he injured Michael and Tim's backs.
I wish we took pictures. Right now my summer album on myspace is crap.
Anyways... We spent a good five hours or so in the pool. Good thing I didn't get too dark. :P
Afterwards, Jessica demanded we brought home leftovers.
Michael is eating his right now...
Andrew took my shrimp chips.

So... tomorrow I'm doing... nothing. Probably AP homework.
Wednesday... dance practice with Kit? Tyler might come over to work on AP homework with me.
Thursday... I'm not going to the beach. :/
Friday is Annica's birthday party. :] Wooh.
And Saturday... I think I have dance practice for my Auntie's birthday bash.

I want to go to Disneyland soon.
But that'll probably be after Rittz's 18th birthday party at the beach in a little less than two weeks. With VJAK and JAM. Bryan can't go because he's taking a trip to the Philippines. Lucky.
So... we'll all bring our own friends I think. So I guess we'll have this ginormous group of asians with like... five or so white people wandering around Disneyland.
I REALLY WANNA GOOOO. Like... we have to.

Oh yes.
I forgot to wish HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Tyler.
I feel bad. He reminded me on meebo earlier.
I'M SORRY!
I owe you cookies. :]

Anyways... Michael's still eating probably.
I'm afraid to call him. I'll wait a little longer.
I'll probably do some puzzles in my "Variety Puzzles" book.
...Seriously. That's what I've been doing lately.
It makes me feel smart though... so I can't really complain.
When I'm not watching TV or on the computer doing some random game on facebook...
I'm working on mind puzzles in this book that Rittz, Veeno and I each got last summer.

Even with the puzzles, my summer's starting to feel a bit better.
Hopefully that continues.

It is currently 12:27

So. I'm trying to keep myself occupied.
Getting only a tad bit tired.

Today was nice.
Watched two movies: Transformers 2 [with the familia] and The Proposal [with Michael, Drea and Andrew].
I liked the first Transformers movie better.
The Proposal was quite cute and quirky and funny.

Oh yes. Michael and Peter avoided my family. :]
They hid in Borders.
Then I FINALLY BOUGHT MY OWN TICKET! Woooh.
Because I wanted to go into the theater seperately.
Just in case. Hehe.

So then... after movie... White Lime.
Walked outside to check a store's window for this nice white bike I saw before.
These little middle schoolers or incoming freshman [I can't even tell the difference.]
were... what? What is it called? Catcalls? Idk. Something like that.
I hear, "DAMN!" and "GOT A NICE ASS."
-_- No no. That is a big no no.
I probably should've slapped them. Yeah?

Anywaaays... saw Tim Earr, Jon, Char, Amanda, etc?
That was cool.
I almost hurt Tim when I hugged him.
His foot. Oopsies.

032709

Happy Three Months.

"You're not just bending the rules anymore, you're breaking
them."

Michael makes me really happy.
I keep thinking about the past.
I've know you since the fifth/sixth grade.
Didn't say a single word to you until freshman year.

"Why do you dress like that now?"
(You won't let me forget this, huh?)

Who would've thought that we would happen?
Hmm?

I love you.
I wish I could've seen you today.
I miss yooou.

I LOVE YOU.

Change of Plans.

So I've gone from watching Transformers with Drea, Andrew and Michael
to watching Transformers with Drea, Micah, Michael and my brother, Jeric
to watching Transformers with my mother, Jeric, my other brother, Joel and Michael
to watching Transformers with my mother, Jeric and Joel
to going bowling with my mother, Jeric and Joel
to going bowling with my mother, Jeric, Joel and Michael.

Interesting how that works.

Tomorrow...
Performing at my Lola Estrelle's birthday party.

Oh yes, and tomorrow...
wish I could spend it with you.

Phineas and Ferb.

Today, I realized that my summer is complete crap.
Want to know what I've done?

- Went to the beach.
- Went shopping.
- Didn't go to Michael's on June 20th.
- Didn't go to Sean's birthday party.
- Tutored both of my brothers for two hours everyday.
- Watched Star King and other videos on youtube.
- Refreshed my myspace homepage 50 bajillion times.
- Finished almost half of my AP homework.
- Got my Driver's Ed certificate in the mail.
- Read FML and MLIA. [Mostly FML so my life wouldn't seem so... slkjfdlshdf]
- Oh yeah. Michael comes over like... almost twice a week and we watch movies and go to the library with my mom and brothers... isn't that fun?

The darkness I soaked up from the beach should be going away soon with all the time I've been spending inside the house...

So I'm gonna watch another youtube video now.

My summer sucks.
FML.

Top Chef, yay.

So I just finished watching three episodes of Top Chef.
Kinda bored. So I decided to take this time to blog a bit.
I changed the channel to The-N and now there's a Degrassi commercial playing.
I wonder if there are people at my school similar to the characters on that show...
Hmmm. Ponderable.

Michael just called me.
And it's 11:11.

Michael in the bathroom.
I think he's spitting into the sink or something.

He sang me a lullaby last night. :]
It was the first time in a while that I fell asleep quickly.

Now Michael's eating watermelons.
But his favorite fruit = pears.
Then it's watermelons...

Happy Birthday Daddy. And Sean.

[21:35] YOmikeHO: you havent blogged in like 6 days
[21:35] yo tofu ball: i know!
[21:36] yo tofu ball: i kinda feel like blogging.
[21:36] YOmikeHO: haha
[21:36] YOmikeHO: id like to know whats going through your mind lately.
[21:36] yo tofu ball: what if i don't talk about that though?
[21:36] yo tofu ball: hmmm?!
[21:36] YOmikeHO: k.
[21:36] YOmikeHO: sure
[21:36] YOmikeHO: w/e
[21:36] YOmikeHO: doent matter
[21:37] YOmikeHO: i like reading your blogs
[21:37] yo tofu ball: hehe.
[21:37] yo tofu ball: :]
[21:37] YOmikeHO: wait
[21:37] YOmikeHO: i love*

So, Happy Birthday to my papa and Sean Omoto.
I ate too much today and I'm going to the beach tomorrow.
That's bad.

But uh, yeah. Tomorrow night I will be sleeping in a nice tent, under the stars, with the sound of the waves, making s'mores, chatting with my cousins, taking the first pictures of the summer.
And then Michael's like, "What if a tsunami hits?"
Thank you, Michael.
Have fun at your session/hangout tomorrow...
That I can't go to.
:[

I'm watching Super Junior on Intimate Note right now.
So funny and cute. I love them. :]

Anyways, I miss DBSK. Please go back to Korea. Or even better, come to the US!
None of their Japanese fans take pity on the non-Japanese speakers and post videos with subs... It's maddening.

I should be packing for the beach right now.
I don't really feel like it.
I want to finish watching Intimate Note.
Then I'll call Michael.
And talk to him on the phone while I pack.

So, my life right now?
It's... good. Just good.
I'm content with it.
Waiting for something exciting to happen.
Maybe that'll be tomorrow?
But I'm just hoping it'll happen this summer.

Oh yes... this summer:
AP WORK
and DRIVING CRAP.
Tyler says to get an SAT Prep Book.

Wooh fun.

Uh.

So. I'm just chillin'.
Trying to keep busy so I won't fall asleep.
Waiting for my second strength to kick in.
I wonder how soon is soon.

So I actually work on Driver's Ed today.
Started in the middle of Chapter 2.
Now, it's almost done with Chapter 7 apparantly.
Thank you Tyler.
I owe you.
:]

I think I'll be staying up late again.

So.
I kind of don't know what to do right now. I don't really know how to react.
It's a little embarrassing... you know?

This actually changes a few things.

This is just another bullet point to add on to my list of things to distract me when I'm supposed to be studying for history.

I agree with you.
But I feel like crap.

Sucks.

"If I had a weak heart..."

So what happened last night?
I'm really confused.
You gave up so easily.
Maybe it was your subconscious mind that said her name.
But doesn't that mean you want her in some way or another?
I don't know... I was so scared.
I'm pretty sure my heart felt like yours did when you thought I would fall of the second floor of the mall... if not, then it felt ten times worse.

Starting today, I'm going to be a better person.
Physically and emotionally.
For you.

"You were the first one I'd see when I would walk into a room,
but now I can't even keep my eyes open for you."

[PS] I'm praying for Kris's mom who's in the hospital.
I hope everything's okay.
I heart you BFxInfinity=Undefined.
*Hand hug*
"Aaww..."