Wtf.

Have fun, you dick.


We don't say the right things anymore.
11:11
One day he'll realize you're worth it, or you'll realize he isn't.

You're awful, I love you.

I like that word.
Junkpunch > Dropkick. Says me.
Because I want to junkpunch Scarlett Johansson's character, Anna Marks, in He's Just Not That Into You.
Every time I watch that movie I want to junkpunch the TV.
Yeah.
:D I hate situations like that. SO MUCH.
Even in movies.
Yeah. That much.
Be scared.


So. I'm in Corona still. Going home today though! I miss people. Lots and lots.
I need to figure out my schedule too. So... there's work to do. Ehgahd.
Oh yeah! I need to upload all my pictures too!
From Rittz's 18th birthday, Rittz's friend's going-away/house-warming party and the OC Fair.
There's practice on Monday . I'm bringing Rittz.
Other than that... I don't think I have very many plans.
But we'll make them.

MAYBE I'LL FINALLY GET TO WATCH HARRY POTTAH!
And get some frozen yogurt. Mmmmm.


I had boba today. It was okay boba.
Probably because it was a donut shop... Hmm.
The best place to get boba?
Ten Ren's Tea Time.
Craving? Yes. Yes I am.


JRawr is sweaty and needs to go shower.
[14:12] jr catanghal: IM FREAKN SOAKED
[14:13] yo tofu ball: WHA?!
[14:13] yo tofu ball: WHY?!
[14:14] jr catanghal: sweaty lol
[14:14] yo tofu ball: eeeew.
[14:14] yo tofu ball: go shower
[14:14] jr catanghal: my heart is beating mega fast
[14:14] jr catanghal: imma go shower after i cool down haha
[14:15] jr catanghal: imma cause an abnormal heartbeat if i go shower now o_o
[14:15] yo tofu ball: thank you.
[14:15] yo tofu ball: what does pedantic mean again?
[14:15] jr catanghal: LOL
[14:15] jr catanghal: SHHH
[14:15] jr catanghal: freakn mocking me
[14:15] jr catanghal: lol


Oh yes. Rittz is so happy that she can wear socks with the size 7 vans she got for her birthday.

Authentic Lo Pro.

She kept calling them "Classics." Lmao. She says they're better than chucks. She feels much lighter. Walking ad.

I'm so screwed. I'm screwed.

Mkay. So...
I haven't gotten my schedule yet.
But I know that there's some conflict going on.
I want need to take duel enrollment math since I'm dropping AP USH.
That's 7th period.
I wanted to take Jazz Choir because I demand four years of choir and I can't be in Chamber because I'll need two classes available... and I don't.
Jazz is 7th period also.
I also wanted to take Adv. Dance Choreo because it would be another class with Michael.
That's 7th period also! Shiiiiiiiit.
So... I'm trying to see if I can switch from duel enrollment to AP Calc.
But I need to know if there was summer work. Or else I'm screwed. And SHIIIIIT.
Either I switch or I stay in duel enrollment and get crap electives.
Damnit.

Oh yes.
The OC Fair was fun-ish decent.
I'll have pictures with nice little descriptions up from that later.

Webcam boredom.

We were really really really bored.
So we got a little gussied up.
And took these pictures with Veeno's webcam. We ate Good Humor Strawberry Shortcake Bars.
Mmmm. Yummy.
I cut it a bit short so that I could talk to Michael before he slept.
Once he did, I tried to interact with Rittz's friend, Jon Jon, on the webcam.
It wasn't... that interesting.
So I left.
And went on Facebook and Myspace.
I'm neglecting Myspace.
I'm sorry, Myspace. I'm lagging to upload our other summer photos, too.
Suuuuuuuuucks.

Oh yes, my cousins showed me this video today.
It's really funny. I lawled.



So. I think you should go to the OC Fair with my cousins and me on Thursday.
It'll be fun. We can get fat on deep fried candy bars and oreos and funnel cake.
Yummy. I'm craving now. Doesn't that look good?!

One of the most boring summer days of my whole life.

Hi. My name is Jil and I'm stuck in Aliso Viejo at Veeno's house doing nothing and it's really very hot.
I've been sitting in front of the computer, eating a Popsicle, sweating, playing random games of Facebook, talking to people on AIM and chatting with total strangers on Omegle.com. Yay!

I am currently talking to a 22 year old man named Martin who lives in the Netherlands.
[Funny. My cousins and I watched the movie Five Fingers. The main character was a man named Martjin, who's from Holland aka "The Netherlands."] Very strange and interesting.
Hmm. Weird. He's offering to show me a picture of himself.
Good thing it's omegle and I don't have to talk to him again.

Happy Four Months.

Maybe I screwed it all up.
Maybe I ruined it.
Maybe I shouldn't have said anything.
I'm sorry. I've just been so confused and hurting and wanting to know how you felt about me.
Maybe it was nagging you too much or not communicating enough.
Today was the not so perfect day for all this.
I know you said you lose interest.
But I'm praying so much that you won't.

I'll just wait.
And hope that you'll just talk to me.
Because I'm already regretting what I brought up.
I didn't know it would hurt this much.

I don't know what to do.
They say to listen to your heart.
I can't hear it though.
I can't hear it beating.
I feel dead.

Happy Four Months, Michael.
I really really really love you.
And I miss you so much.

Excerpts and Closure.

EXCERPT FROM Just Say IT:
"I know we were both having the same problems, considering the fact they're both well together all the time. I dont think he does it intentionally, like I said, at least he still calls you you know? Like you said "They think just cause they spend an amount of time with us they can go hang out for the same amount." In a way its kinda fair, but for my case its a second chance. Reassurance is key to knowing that I made the right choice and not just wasting my time. But I dont think he's going to do anything babe. You have to talk to him about it you know? If you can't get your point across then.. I'm not going to say anything. But I know he'll understand, he has more experience and he loves you alot.
Call me if you need talking too Bbygrl."

Today. Today started off as an ordinary day.
I woke up, had breakfast, showered, called Michael, went to Veeno's.
Now I'm using the computer at Veeno's.
I'm currently having a much needed talk with Jrawr, bfxinfinity=und, Tyler and Rembrandt.
Especially Rembrandt. It was a much needed talk.

irtylerr (11:35:16 PM): yeah

irtylerr (11:35:17 PM): da best

irtylerr (11:35:34 PM): do you know about jils blog

remvicbboy (11:36:46 PM): no

remvicbboy (11:36:49 PM): never heard

remvicbboy (11:36:51 PM): that's rare

remvicbboy (12:13:26 AM): craaap.

remvicbboy (12:13:28 AM): okay

remvicbboy (12:17:03 AM): crap jil's blogs are scary. her oldest ones

remvicbboy (12:17:06 AM): makes me feel like shit

irtylerr (12:17:13 AM): about you?

remvicbboy (12:17:18 AM): yeah

remvicbboy (12:17:19 AM): fuck

EXCERPT FROM Rembrandt Joshua Portin Victa:
"I’m sorry Jil. For being a dick. Not commiting. Not doing shit at all. FOR WASTING YOUR PRECIOUS TIME TOO. I now realized I wasted everyone’s fucking time. I’m sorry for letting your cousins down, I’m sorry for giving you up. I’m sorry that I was acting like I was FUCKING AROUND in our little relationship. I’m sorry for not even doing anything about it after the whole “ending point”. I didn’t say one word, make eye contact. Tried to avoid you like being a wanted criminal from the police. I wish I actually did something. I guess my pussiness will show on this blog on this online blogging shit."

yo tofu ball: they scared you?
remvicbboy: yeah. they were pretty bad haha. especially that one FCUKING part.
remvicbboy: woo that's really really scared me
yo tofu ball: oooh
yo tofu ball: hah. yeah. right. i was a little ticked.
remvicbboy: yeah i could tell haha. man, i'm so lame. i could've gotten over this so long ago.
yo tofu ball: yeah. we both could've.
remvicbboy: yeah. woo. i guess i'm all good now (:
yo tofu ball: yay!

yo tofu ball: i'm glad this happened.
remvicbboy: what the heck. i'm not. this sucks!
yo tofu ball: i feel relieved. for some reason.. i feel like a piece of me is coming back because we finally talked about what happened.
yo tofu ball: it still sucks
yo tofu ball: but i'm still glad it happened.
yo tofu ball: i'm sorry. is that not something you wanted hear after writing that blog?
remvicbboy: no actually that was perfect. just what i wanted to hear.
remvicbboy: thanks for hearing me out (:
yo tofu ball: of course. :] i'm really not one to hold a grudge.

And now we talk about change. How it sucks.
So many things are just changing.
Tyler and I have made a promise to keep in touch after high school.

yo tofu ball: promise.
irtylerr: promise.
irtylerr: as long as one of us
irtylerr: doesnt move to like maine
irtylerr: or something
yo tofu ball: lmao
yo tofu ball: seriously.
irtylerr: i dont think we'll lose touch
yo tofu ball: i really hope not. i'm gonna try hard to prevent it
irtylerr: yeah

Guitar Hero?

I didn't know playing guitar on Guitar Hero took this long.
I thought it was gonna be a quick song.
It's been like... what? 45 minutes?

I'm really bored, reading FML.
Getting a little tired. But that always goes away.
My feet hurt, along with my neck.