EXCERPT FROM Just Say IT:
"I know we were both having the same problems, considering the fact they're both well together all the time. I dont think he does it intentionally, like I said, at least he still calls you you know? Like you said "They think just cause they spend an amount of time with us they can go hang out for the same amount." In a way its kinda fair, but for my case its a second chance. Reassurance is key to knowing that I made the right choice and not just wasting my time. But I dont think he's going to do anything babe. You have to talk to him about it you know? If you can't get your point across then.. I'm not going to say anything. But I know he'll understand, he has more experience and he loves you alot.
Call me if you need talking too Bbygrl."
Today. Today started off as an ordinary day.
I woke up, had breakfast, showered, called Michael, went to Veeno's.
Now I'm using the computer at Veeno's.
I'm currently having a much needed talk with Jrawr, bfxinfinity=und, Tyler and Rembrandt.
Especially Rembrandt. It was a much needed talk.
irtylerr (11:35:16 PM): yeah
irtylerr (11:35:17 PM): da best
irtylerr (11:35:34 PM): do you know about jils blog
remvicbboy (11:36:46 PM): no
remvicbboy (11:36:49 PM): never heard
remvicbboy (11:36:51 PM): that's rare
remvicbboy (12:13:26 AM): craaap.
remvicbboy (12:13:28 AM): okay
remvicbboy (12:17:03 AM): crap jil's blogs are scary. her oldest ones
remvicbboy (12:17:06 AM): makes me feel like shit
irtylerr (12:17:13 AM): about you?
remvicbboy (12:17:18 AM): yeah
remvicbboy (12:17:19 AM): fuck
EXCERPT FROM Rembrandt Joshua Portin Victa:
"I’m sorry Jil. For being a dick. Not commiting. Not doing shit at all. FOR WASTING YOUR PRECIOUS TIME TOO. I now realized I wasted everyone’s fucking time. I’m sorry for letting your cousins down, I’m sorry for giving you up. I’m sorry that I was acting like I was FUCKING AROUND in our little relationship. I’m sorry for not even doing anything about it after the whole “ending point”. I didn’t say one word, make eye contact. Tried to avoid you like being a wanted criminal from the police. I wish I actually did something. I guess my pussiness will show on this blog on this online blogging shit."
yo tofu ball: they scared you?
remvicbboy: yeah. they were pretty bad haha. especially that one FCUKING part.
remvicbboy: woo that's really really scared me
yo tofu ball: oooh
yo tofu ball: hah. yeah. right. i was a little ticked.
remvicbboy: yeah i could tell haha. man, i'm so lame. i could've gotten over this so long ago.
yo tofu ball: yeah. we both could've.
remvicbboy: yeah. woo. i guess i'm all good now (:
yo tofu ball: yay!
yo tofu ball: i'm glad this happened.
remvicbboy: what the heck. i'm not. this sucks!
yo tofu ball: i feel relieved. for some reason.. i feel like a piece of me is coming back because we finally talked about what happened.
yo tofu ball: it still sucks
yo tofu ball: but i'm still glad it happened.
yo tofu ball: i'm sorry. is that not something you wanted hear after writing that blog?
remvicbboy: no actually that was perfect. just what i wanted to hear.
remvicbboy: thanks for hearing me out (:
yo tofu ball: of course. :] i'm really not one to hold a grudge.
And now we talk about change. How it sucks.
So many things are just changing.
Tyler and I have made a promise to keep in touch after high school.
yo tofu ball: promise.
irtylerr: promise.
irtylerr: as long as one of us
irtylerr: doesnt move to like maine
irtylerr: or something
yo tofu ball: lmao
yo tofu ball: seriously.
irtylerr: i dont think we'll lose touch
yo tofu ball: i really hope not. i'm gonna try hard to prevent it
irtylerr: yeah
