I've been described as angry, boring and strict.
Occasionally nice. But hey, what fun is that, right?
Exactly. It's not.
Had a conversation with this friend/acquaintance person today.
He couldn't even telling me a fucking joke because he thought I wouldn't laugh.
Why? Because I'm "not fun."
And I don't know if he was being serious or not, but I seriously took it to heart.
I honestly didn't think it would bother me this much, but it did.
I started thinking about what all of his friends say about me
How they assume I'm always mad and strict.
Even he thinks I'm angry when I'm really upset.
UPSET. As in HURT. As in not angry, not mad, but really sad.
And it really sucks that people automatically think that when I blog I'm always mad.
I have more than one emotion.
And when I have to be the person that always tries to get things done, meaning I have to be "strict" in order to get others to focus, then I get the bitch label or something.
Okay yeah they say it's a joke and I've actually tried to go with it and accept it with a good sense of humor, but how many just kiddings are really "just kiddings"? Right?
I really did not want this to affect me this much, and I'm hoping my period is coming or something because crying over this is a really stupid and pathetic thing to do.
