Sometimes people tell you do things because they want you to say "no."
Like... a confirmation so they know you won't do what they don't want you to do.
Like when you told me to replace you with him as my escort.
You just wanted to hear me say, "Hell no! Are you stupid?"
That made you happy right? Relieved?
Sometimes I do that too. Like, just now.
I told you that I'd stop texting you because I didn't want to bug you anymore.
I was hoping that you'd reply with, "No, you're not bugging me :]"
[Shoot, I didn't even need a smiley face...]
But, you didn't. "Okay ill text you later"
It was like you were confirming that, yes, I was bugging you. [I'm sorry btw..]
And, I'm not saying I'm mad or that you're a jerk or anything. You're not a jerk because I told you to go have fun. So yeah, I'm not blaming you.
It's just that, I noticed, sometimes people want you to say "no."
It's almost like when someone asks you if you want something to eat. Most of the time, they're thinking, "say no say no say no say no..."
Am I right? Yes I am. Because you've done it before.
You told me to do something because you thought it would make me happy, but you really wanted me to deny it and say no. Just imagine what it would've been like if I had said, "okay."
However, the difference between then and now, is that... you actually don't mind leaving me alone when I'm sad. You're not gonna put up a fight even when I tell you to go have fun. If I sacrifice my happiness in order to make you happy, you just take it and don't really think about it. I guess that's what sucks the most.
I'm not blaming you though. I'm not mad, promise.
I know I told you to go hang out with your friends.
It's just one of those, "It's the thought that counts" moments I suppose..
I think I just know you a lot more than you know me.
