So I mention that practice is one of the most important things to you right now..
And you say, not even! It puts me in pain!
And I can't believe I said...
yotofuball: you said that practice is the only thing you look forward to
yotofuball: :[
yomikeho: it puts me in physical pain
yomikeho: -__-
yotofuball: *:]
yotofuball: aw
yotofuball: but it's worth it
yotofuball: even though it puts you in pain, it's worth it
That's what I said to you. I didn't even think about it before I said it. I guess that's just how I operate. Those are my words to live by. If something is really worth it, you'll endure the pain or whatever because you know something good is happening. And it'll all be worth it in the end.
I honestly can't believe I really said that. And when I reread it, I just... teared up. I have no idea way. Well I do know why... it's because I found an analogy that could explain my mindset. You practice and get sore and beat up because you know it's worth it. You make progress and get better, and the results are more than amazing.
That's how I felt about our relationship, that's how I felt about you. Even though you hurt me so many times, I could never truly break up with you and just let you go because I thought our relationship was worth it. Every time we struggled, I just thought it was making us stronger. I thought we were progressing and getting better. I thought our relationship would end up being more than amazing.
But damn, what we have now isn't worth anything anymore is it?
yotofuball: are you gonna dance with anyone on your birthday?
yomikeho: if u dont want me to
yotofuball: well i don't.. but that hasn't stopped you before
