Person who's made the biggest impact on me? He's comes in a close second to my cousins.
Michael Ho. My first real, serious relationship. My ex-boyfriend.
So, you can understand why I don't want to post this on tumblr for almost everyone to see... Idk, I guess I feel safer on blogger.
This boy... when I first met this boy in Middle School. He was just another Asian video game nerd, beginner bboy that I never thought twice about. Freshman year, he was the boy who was trying to be someone I thought he wasn't. Sophomore year, he was my "butterflies in the belly", "I can't believe we're really together" guy. Junior year, he was my everything.
It's hard to compare what he taught me to what my cousins did... but he did, in fact, teach me a lot.
He taught me that you should keep your mind open, you'll find love in places you never thought you would. He taught me that yes, there are boys capable of doing crazy sweet things for you, like folding a billion origami hearts for you and shoving them in your backpack. He taught me what it feels like to truly be scared for a future other than your own. He taught me what it's like to want to encourage and help someone so much so you can stay with them. He taught me true jealousy. He taught me true pain and hurt. He taught me how to put your own feelings aside in order for the other to be happy. He taught me the feeling of missing someone so much that you feel the loneliest you could ever feel without them. He taught me how to sleep on the phone. He taught me not to put my guard down and to not get my hopes up. He taught me to always watch myself and make sure I'm not being annoying. He taught me confidence. He taught me heartbreak. There's so many things I could say about him. One thing I know... He taught me that there is such a thing as the perfect boyfriend.
